This midweek moment was supposed to be posted, as its name suggests, in the middle of the week. Wednesday, maybe Thursday, something like that. Today is Saturday. My point is, that it is okay to not be okay and to say it.
How that relates? It’s been one of those weeks where everything seems to take way longer than you expect, things that should really take you thirty minutes seem to take three to four times that. And just like that, poof, there goes the entire week. In addition the way my depression manifests itself is in one of two ways: anger, or what happened this week – lack of motivation. I got writers block, not just on this blog post, but in everything I was doing at work and for Covenant alike. When I get behind on things, my depression tends to come on strong. This week, I am not entirely okay. Nothing is wrong, but I’m behind and I am depressed. I am saying it, because it is okay to not be okay.
There is this notion that some people like to push, that everything should always be alright, that if we are healthy and nothing is actually seriously wrong then we should be happy. But that just isn’t reality for most of us. Nothing can be “wrong” and we can still find ourselves depressed, or struggling in a number of ways. And I want to say it. You’re not alone in this. It is okay to not be okay. You can’t just make yourself be happy if you are not. You’re not alone in struggling for what seems like no reason. You’re not alone in getting behind on projects. You’re not alone in just sometimes not feeling 100% or being at your best. And that is okay. We need to cut ourselves a little slack for this, because beating ourselves up over it will just make it worse. We have to just keep doing the best we can, keep moving forward, try to elevate our mood sure, but don’t feel ashamed of being down or slow or just not okay. It happens to most of us. We are human and this is part of being human. Find a way out of it if you can, and cut yourself some slack if you can’t. You are worthy, you are loved, you are valuable, and you are enough just the way you are. Blessings!
Jordan
